Missionaries in Yunnan
Vanessa Y. Niu
They built a new aquarium. To keep us
busy. What of it? They felt the ache
of blank space there. The full
and beating hollownesses.
Knocking on the door—space rang, bleated,
and ran away.
And why shouldn’t it? Faced with
such necessity, jellies let themselves
be eaten. Holiness isn’t all religious,
just unknown. Clasping a stranger’s hand
in the aquarium aisle
like flailing rope on the last helicopter
leaving the colony. The last ray of light
sweeping from the old lighthouse.
Took on those stairs, once, winding all the way
up, to look at everything
from above. Each creaking
plank, coming face to face
with the space. Coldness in the walls’
bric-a-brac. Floating up,
the light
source. I emanated from the lighthouse.
My body broke into beams.
What of it? No wind on blank days, only existence.
Fumbling with cotton caught
in a distant monsoon,
the soil
lets itself be soaked.
Vanessa Y. Niu is a writer and musician from New York City. Her work has been recognized by the Kennedy Center, the Guggenheim, NYFW, and others. Off the lined page, her work has been set to music in collaborations with Juilliard, Interlochen, and Purcell School composers.